1. |
sleep
02:17
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Insomnia again
Kept up by fantasies and broken promises
Kept up by past mistakes
Haunted by bad decisions I've made
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna sleep
When I close my eyes
My world goes black
Lose my grid on reality
Can't stop the demons from attacking
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna sleep
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2. |
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Another night crying myself to bed
Another night swearing worn out promises
Another night wishing I was dead
But telling myself that there's so much to live for
When the things you read
Become real
And the lies you hear
Are knocking at your door
It takes just a second
To process it
But it takes ages just to feel it
You're in a hopeless situation
But you wanna see the bright side
So you'll turn on the lights
And pray for a sign
But it doesn't feel alright
You wanna think the future is better
And wrap yourself in a too big sweater
Disappear and make everyone forget you
I know it's true
Another day another fucking mental breakdown
Waking up to hate my life
Holding back trials and tribulations
Wondering why I even try to survive
Cuz when the things you read
Become real
And the lies you hear
Are knocking at your door
It takes just a second
To process it
But it takes ages just to feel it
You're in a hopeless situation
But you wanna see the bright side
So you'll turn on the lights
And pray for a sign
But it doesn't feel alright
You wanna think the future is better
And wrap yourself in a too big sweater
Disappear and make everyone forget you
I know it's true
Estradiol
Change my body
Make it who I want to be
In my image
Smooth me out
And help me see
The girl inside me
I've been stuck in the vessel for too long
Outdated
Insecure
And I can't go on
Something's gotta give and it ain't helping
That I gotta break my by back to be perceived
Estradiol
Change my body
Make it who I want to be
In my image
Smooth me out
And help me see
The girl inside me
And it's hard to believe
That you're a few weeks away
And all my dreams have led up to this day
Hopeless nights
But hopeful mornings
Healing starts today
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3. |
girl on twitter
02:30
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Started out as a stan account
Didn't think much of it
Making jokes with other fans
About Twenty One Pilots
Share theories night and day
As the clock would tick away
Stalk all my favorite bands
Didn't know there was a community of other girls like me
Hype each other up
And share GoFundMes
It's pretty sweet
To escape into that blue app
Of hot takes and weirdly formatted emojis
But mostly it's nice to be
A girl on Twitter
Minors do not interact
Cuz it ain't safe for work
But Laura Jane Grace followed me back
Found other musicians
Without similar taste
I'll quote retweet and hope they notice me
It's pretty sweet
To escape into that blue app
Of hot takes and weirdly formatted emojis
But mostly it's nice to be
A girl on Twitter
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5. |
old habits
02:04
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I'm a control freak
Always have been
I'm feeling depressed or maybe manic
I cannot sit still
Tic when I'm anxious
Something's gotta give
Cuz I'm losing it
Working to open my mind
And change perspective
Apologized
I'm still trying to figure it out
Hope you can see that
Hope I don't relapse
Cuz part of me's just
Scared that I'm
Falling back into old habits
I said
Falling
Can't catch my breath
Cuz I don't know where I'm going
Falling back into old habits
I said
Falling
Can't predict the future
Can't be too sure
My insecurities cloud my judgement
I recognize that my thoughts are unhealthy
Rationalize it
It's time to feel it
Stop getting in your own damn way
The world is changing
Even if you don't like it
Get with the times
Or they'll leave you behind
Stop being anxious
Just take a deep breath
And let the current carry you away
You stay stuck and bitter
Your life won't get much better
Push all the fear aside
Just try to live your life
Cuz otherwise you're trapped in a cycle
CBT get that shit out of me
Lizard brain
And a hairpin trigger
Snap at anyone
Won't give you what you want
It's time to compromise
Or else you're
Falling back into old habits
I said
Falling
Can't catch my breath
Cuz I don't know where I'm going
Falling back into old habits
I said
Falling
Can't predict the future
Can't be too sure
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6. |
i wanna be you
02:33
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I wanna be you
But no one fuckin wants me to
They think they understand me
But it's a lie
I wanna be you
But no one fuckin wants me to
They think I'm someone else
But it's a fiction
Gender
Envy
Gender
Envy
I wants curves and soft skin
To shave my legs and be all smooth and shit
To break hearts when I sway my hips
Woah
And you embody all those things
That makes me want to buy you a ring
But I'm not sure if I want you or
I wanna be you
But no one fuckin wants me to
They think I'm someone else
But it's a fiction
I wanna be you
But no one fuckin wants me to
They think that I'm crazy
Against religion
Cuz I wanna be you
I wanna be you
I get so jealous
You can wear a dress
When I would be scorned and told to stop
Wanna grow my hair
Have it down to there
Without people telling me it looks like a mop
I wanna be you
Want your body type
I'll take the cellulite
And all the cat calls
I wanna be you
Not to glorify
I just wish I was seen
The same as you
I wanna be you
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7. |
stream of consciousness
02:36
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Just got out the shower
Going to therapy
Kind of excited
What does that say about my life?
About my life.
It's Bandcamp Friday
What does that say about us
As a culture?
It's become an impromptu holiday
"Oh, thank you cooperations for not stealing my money for one Friday of the month"
Yeah.
Oo oo
Oo oo
Oo oo
Oo oo
Oo oo
Oo oo
This is just stream of consciousness
Over 2 chords
Capo on the second fret
I don't know what I'm actually playing
There's an A minor shape
And an open A shape minus the last finger
It makes this sound
Maybe I'll switch it up
This is stream of consciousness before I go off to therapy
This is stream of consciousness before I go and spill the beans
This is stream of consciousness I don't have anything planned
This is stream of consciousness
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8. |
ufo tattoo
02:17
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i want a ufo tattoo
i know it's out of the blue
but can you blame me?
for being impulsive
I'm still a kid I guess
sheltered but curious
anxious of the outcome
but that makes it more fun
standing in line
waiting my turn
hope I don't die
hope I don't burn
panic floods my brain
lion's out of it cage
I'm standing up
head held high
oh my god what if I die
my stomach hurts
i think I'll bail
then obsess over it later
i want a ufo tattoo
i know it's out of the blue
but can you blame me?
for being impulsive
I'm still a kid I guess
Selfish and curious
Learning I have autonomy
Over my body
Standing in line
Waiting my turn
Hope I don't die
Hope I don't burn
Panic floods my brain
I've waiting all day
I'm standing up
Head held
Oh god what if my mother sees
This new tattoo
What do I do
How do I explain this to her?
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I hope your children end up gay
I hope your children end up trans
I hope that they use neopronouns
I hope that it makes you mad
I hope they're openly queer
With rainbow flags in their rooms
I hope they have multiple partners
And they're not scared to hide from you
You need a reality check
Since you tried to tear down mine
You need to experience firsthand
What it's like to live my life
Your ignorance is fuckin stupid
You've got enough kids too
Statistically a couple of your older boys
Like to suck a dick or two
I hope your children end up gay
I hope your children end up trans
I hope that they use neopronouns
I hope that it makes you mad
And when they finally come out
You'll lecture them about their choices
Guess who'll be there to give them love
And give them a bed when they run away from you
Your ignorance is fuckin stupid
You've got enough kids too
Statistically a couple of your girls
Wanna touch a tit or two
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11. |
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I'm a city girl
Used to the trains
I know the L the A the C the D and F
Lived in Times Square
For a for a New York Minute
I know the Empire State
West 4th
And Union Square
And that's about all I know
(The sidewalk is what I call home)
I've never seen more than 5 inches of snow
Haven't ever lived anywhere else
Sure your other states might be nice
All your landmarks and plateaus seem fine
I'll just stay here with all the rats
The roaches and I eat McDonald's
And split the rent
It's only 3k a month
And sure the heatings broken
I can barely afford lunch
But I've got $2.75
And coffee in hand
Jump the turnstyle and give it to a homeless man
I'm a city girl that's all I'll ever be
I'm a city girl that's all I'll ever be
I'm a city girl that's all I'll ever be
I'm a city girl that's all I'll ever be
If I'm being honest
The South scares me
Take your Blue Lives Matter flags and let me be
All the Walmarts and Trump bumper stickers
Drive throughs, swamps and alligators
Travel 15 miles to get some bread
I'm a city girl
I don't know anything
Where's my bodega?
Need baconeggandcheese
If I don't have my metro card I won't go far
If I don't have my metro card I won't go far
(Solo)
I'm like the weeds in the concrete
I don't grow
Because this grimy fuckin city's all I really know
Trapped by convenience
But love it all the same
Graffiti walls and abandoned buildings call my name
Like my wildlife fabricated and policed
Not by the NYPD
Fuck 12
They're petty
Tore down the mountains
So we could sunbathe in the park
Central Park is an illusion they keep that bit in the dark
I'm a city girl
I love it all the same
And when I play music
All of Brooklyn knows my name
I'm a city girl it can't be all that bad
Think that NYC is pretty fuckin rad
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13. |
Backup Plan
02:38
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She dreams of being an artist
Just like all of the other punk rockers
She dreams of changing the world
Just like everyone else in the scene
She's not original
Not really
She wants dyed hair and facial piercings
Fitting into a counterculture
She's always admired
But to do that she recognizes
Opportunities pass her by
She's gotta put it all on the line
But to do that she realized
She's gotta trust her talent
She can't
Have a backup plan
Breakin away from the mold
From the daily rise and grind
Wandering pretty aimlessly
Without money to survive
She went on tour
With all her anarchist buddies
Paid for the gas with a hand job in the back of a van
She could have had a masters
Stable job and a five year plan
But she's flying by the seat of her pants
Taking life
One day at a time
It's freeing
But late at night
She wonders
"What if I led a normal life"
Who would I be?
And she lived life to the fullest
Had every drug up her nose
Snorted or injected
Tried everything she wanted to
She feels fulfilled
It's killing you
That she didn't have an unhappy ending
Busked for change and she shortly got arrested
Bailed by her friends who crashed on her couch back in Oakland
She didn't need a backup plan
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When I was a kid
I'd make my eyes blurry
Pretend I was a camera trying
To autofocus
If I do it now
I'm neurodivergent
A product of wokeness
Vaccines and insurgents
Sucked into my phone
Like every other person
Life is so mundane
When no one has spoken
If I say it now
Someone will retweet it
Privacy's a thing of the past and the wealthy
I want to
Close my eyes
Meditate to another life
Bend my elbow
Say I'm double jointed
And everyone thinks that it's neat
No one's impressed
It's all on the internet
Don't really care
If you don't post about it
Everything is cropped
Contained to the pixels
I want to break free
So blow up the missiles
If I complain
Will I get views
Will people shut me down?
If I stay sane
Will I be relevant
Always chasing the next high
We're all addicted
We all circuitboards
Consuming the media
Until we snore
When my phone dies
I forget to be human
Don't look at me
I'm fragile and broken
And hopelessly devoted to you
With your big bright screen
And RGB hue
My darling device
My blue light boo
When I was a kid
I'd make my eyes blurry
Now I'm on my camera
Tap the screen to focus
I'm neurodivergent
A product of wokeness
I should make a livestream
So people will notice
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15. |
Oh Rumbacop!!
01:20
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Oh Rumbacop
Oh Rumbacop
Oh Rumbacop will save us
The city's flooded
Whirlpools in Times Square
Oh Rumbacop
Oh Rumbacop
Will hunt down and sedate us
To shut it off
We'll toss it into the tracks
I'm sorry the A train's delayed
We're paying $2.90 to feed the greedy state
And all our money
Goes to beat cops
To give them AR15's
Tanks and riot gear to crush our dreams
(I imagine there's a harmonica solo in this space)
Oh Rumbacop
Oh Rumbacop
Oh Rumbacop will save us
While Mayor Adams
Bulldozes homeless encampments
Oh Rumbacop
Oh Rumbacop
They're in all our train stations
If that's not bad enough
There's robot dogs
Watch the joints if you want to shut it off
There's a button behind it to get the limbs to stop
Pull the lever
Underneath to get the battery out
We'll take our city back from these fuckin clowns
Because they rather let us fucking drown
Arrest buskers for tryna to make a buck
These new york politicians fuckin suck
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16. |
Anarchy Tonite Queen?
02:31
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What if anything stays?
And does it even really matter?
We build up these lives for time to wash them away
Why don't you take a break?
Take things a little less seriously
Break down and reinvent yourself
Cause if God is out there watching on a big golden chair
And running their fingers through their hair
I don't think they'd mind a little anarchy
So why don't we shake things up a little?
Always what to wear
"Tattoos aren't professional"
You corporate fucks need to loosen up a little
All these structures we create
The universe will masticate
Grinding all your bank accounts to dust
Cause if God is out there watching on a big golden chair
And running their fingers through their hair
I don't think they'd mind a little anarchy
So why don't we shake things up a little?
So quit your job
Stop paying taxes
There's so much more to life than just a paycheck
Working day and working night
Spilling blood over what we think is right
None of that shit matters when we die
Cause if God is out there watching on a big golden chair
And running their fingers through their hair
I don't think they'd expect a little anarchy
So come with me
Let's shake things up together
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17. |
Ms. Gender
02:39
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Misgender me
My eyes
They'll bleed
And bleed
And bleed
No sympathy
Watch as I walk into the sea
I feel the waves
I'll let high tides wash me away
I feel no pain
There's always memories of yesterday
Misgender me
My skeleton belongs to the sea
Me and the ocean floor are one
I didn't even need a gun
Call me
My name
You'd spare yourself the tears and pain
I was so vain
It doesn't matter it's too late
Misgender me
My skeleton belongs to the sea
Me and the ocean floor are one
I didn't even need a gun
*Solo*
Misgender me
My skeleton belongs to the sea
But if you were just kind
Then I'd be yours and you'd be mine.
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Love Hard. Fight Harder.
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